Following My Blog

Okay, so I am new to all of this and I am sure a few are also.  If you would like to follow my page and get notifications when I post something new then here is how (I think LOL)

When on my main page there when you are scrolled to the top, in the bottom right corner there will be a disappearing window (if you scroll it disappears) that says “follow”. Once you click that it will prompt you to enter your email address. You will then receive an email asking for confirmation.  Any time I post you will get an email letting you know 🙂

Or you can just bookmark my page and drop in occasionally.  I am hoping to post about once a day or every other about something new

Thanks to all who have visited so far. I look forward to sharing this journey with you all, but I must go shower now because I feel like a stinking ball of sweat! HAHA

BigGirlGoneFitNHealthy

Ugly Truth: Layers!

Lets talk layers! Okay, so as a big, fat, gross looking girl I always felt the need to layer up!!! In the summer time, no matter the temperature you would NOT see me with less than 2 tank tops on. Realistically, this was my summer attire: jeans, a tank top tucked in, another tank top that was tight to hold in the fat, one more tank top for the “cute layer” affect, and if I was even more self conscious you could bet I would have a t-shirt on top of that also. One benefit, all the layers would absorb the sweat that I would be dripping! I use to look around at these other girls with minimal clothing on (most of my friends) and I would be jealous. I always kept the smile on. When my friends would ask me if I was hot, I would just simply state that I was comfortable. I couldn’t let them know how miserable I was because I knew they wouldn’t understand. I mean, how could they? They were perfect. Typically you would think that as a “fat kid” I would hang out with other people my size, but that wasn’t true. I always hung out with the skinnies. But anyhow, layers — I really only ever thought I would dream about the day I could feel comfortable with just a single tank top on, but I figured it would just be a dream….

This year I found a different kind of support – my gym! (Don’t worry we will discuss them in a future blog) But I started to learn I wasn’t alone and that its OKAY TO LOVE YOURSELF ALONG THE WAY! Woah! thats a new concept! But here I am, today, learning to be okayish in my skin. I now don’t wear extra layers. This picture you can see that my body is far from perfect, but I decided I was not letting it control me.  What better way to start than by ditching a layer or two.

It’s okay to let your flaws show just as much as the parts you are proud of. This is who you are along the way.  I’m not saying it’s always easy. Truth is, some days I have to FORCE myself to keep my smile on because I feel self conscious. But, I now fake my smile a lot cooler! The other benefit, every day I get a little more comfortable and as I get more comfortable – I start to get happier. I stop fearing what others think because I am learning that the most beautiful thing a person can wear IS CONFIDENCE!

“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.”
― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience